River of Mnemosyne
As I stepped into my suit and pulled on the ringlet gloves, I saw a dark form approach from the village. Quickly I snapped on my boots and grabbed up the blade that was stuck into the ground. The form grew larger as it approached, no surprise, but it didn't stop growing and in an instant of recognition I saw it was the giant, Hagrid. He saw me and grinned horribly. The troops gathered and we watched the falling lights dipping beyond the village. They fell and fell. Hundreds of lights descending from the invisible belly of a flailing Octopi mother's engorged belly.
Transports that had been recharged from sources within the village pulled up and we climbed aboard, one hundred and ninety-one, and one giant who weighed down the back of a reinforced jeep. Its rear bumper caught a rock and sheared off, clattering off the side of the road. The main road through the village veered twice and we careened through, knocking bricks from corner buildings. New rubble joined with old rubble, becoming one in the same. As we rumbled in, cutting the silence in two, the wives and old women peeked out of windows. The children hid in closets and babies cried.
I took the ride as solace and reverie. Nothing had my full attention for long and soon the pockets of my soul swirled like partners in a dance hall. A ballet, a tango, a mob. I picked a tiny denim swathe and dipped my pinky. I was scant months old and laying naked in a chilled crib. A wire tethered cap sent pulses of colors and imagery to my infant brain. Before I breakfasted at my mother's breast the training had begun.
The transport tire ran over a stone, and we all lurched from the bench, grabbing at each other's arms to steady. The trucks rolled on through the last of the cottages, like cavalry coming out of a canyon. I almost expected a volley of arrows, a parting shot from indigenous onlookers, but none came. Ahead the ambient light of our adversaries polluted the night, beyond that our driver saw nothing but the canvas flaps and big tires of the truck in the road ahead. Explosions rocked us from our seats.
"Get off, get out," someone shouted. The enemy was shelling the transports on the road ahead. We scrambled out and off the road by the dozens and soon every truck was burning. By instinct we fled from the flames behind to the fire ahead with only our armor and our blades to protect us. The blaze had left us no darkness to hide behind.
A slick synth, stitched, four-holed button pocket. I played a modern goal sport, a war sport. I was seven. Dee was our quarterback this day. We pushed to the goal, advancing by degrees, until I stepped wrong. The ball tumbled loose. But Dee was there, she retrieved the ball and then lateralled, and the warriors flew toward the action. She stood over my fallen body, protecting me from harm, then lowered a hand and pulled me to my feet. Her hair fluttered and covered her face, mouth opening, screams.
Divided, we drove forward to the fight, staying low, crouching behind boulders and debris. Our broken transports littered the field. Piles of lumber, random sheds or hovels became our shields. We no longer knew what exactly we were fighting over, nobody could tell us the goal. Except this: find the enemy, kill the enemy.
Beyond the fire I turned back to the road and seeing a ditch I crouched low and tumbled sideways into it. Just then a body vaulted the gap and me. I twisted in the ditch and swung my blade, feeling it bite and the blue shrouded body fell hard, grunting. Springing up, I hacked again at the Octopi, severing an arm, then thrust into its body. At first I lost my bearings, but seeing the flames I wheeled and ran from the village, staying off the road, keeping low, swinging at every foe.
Soon I was enveloped by darkness, and I thought maybe I had run beyond the fight. I turned and saw black figures moving in the distance, silhouetted by the fire. I bent to a knee. It was like watching a play. The leading man was a giant and he whirled and smote and finally he stopped. For a moment the giant stood still, his weapon slowly lowering. A fog obscured the scene. A gauzy curtain that lowered, then rose again. When the smoke cleared the giant was gone and other shadowy dancing figures took his place. I took that, and I put it in a pocket.
That was the breather I needed. Slowly without thought, without feeling, with no fear, I rose into a crouch and jogged back to the war. My lance was lowered, my blade outstretched, and the whistling shrapnel and the shouts and swishing blades surrounded me and my battalion.
"Here's another. Hand me another flag." The sergeant pushed a yellow pennant into the ground at the soldier's feet. He was cut nearly in two, cloaked in blood, not all of it his own. Sargeant picked up a blade from the scorched earth and laid it over the soldier's chest. His armor was broken and the mottled gray uniform was ripped. One chest pocket was torn open. "Scan his code as well. Number 22." They shuffled through and stepped over the scattered dead Octopi, looking for familiar uniforms and faces.
Now I sit upon the banks of the river, at the confluence, and have a choice. Do I drink from the River of Mnemosyne, or of Lethe? All my training, my entire existence, has led me to Hell and out the other side. Now I bathe my feet at the rivers. One soothes, and one prolongs my torment. How do I choose?
the end